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Archive for December, 2011

New Year’s Resolutions – NOT!

Rather than writing a post that tells of my New Year’s Resolutions, this post is going to list the things that I resolve NOT to do in the New Year.

1.  I resolve not to let people upset me.  The people who usually upset me are the ones that don’t matter.  They are the ones who don’t understand, haven’t been there and done that, and don’t care to take time out to be there for me.  So, I resolve to make sure that they have such a secondary role in my life that they are unable to upset me.  I also resolve not to answer the phone when these people call until I am prepared to talk with them.

2.  I resolve not to go to bed without having the dishes done and the sink cleaned out.  Babysteps!  I resolve not to let everything I learned from FlyLady go by the wayside.

3. I resolve not to use excuses to avoid exercising – that is once my foot is healed.  If I can’t walk, it counts as a darn good reason for not exercising – and a legitimate one.

4. I resolve not to run on empty.  I’m not talking about my car, but that is important too (but not something I usually do).  I’m talking about letting myself get worn down and burnt out.  This means that I need to resolve not to allow things to come in the way of ME time.

5.  I resolve not to say “yes” all the time.  Just because I can do it, doesn’t mean that I should do it.  If it is going to cause me to run on empty, then it is something I shouldn’t do.

6. I resolve not to let people waste my time.  This goes for doctor’s appointments, meetings, and such.  If my time is not meaningful to someone else, then I don’t need to waste my time (except when it comes to my new job).

7. I resolve not to let the boys eat dinner in front of the TV every night of the week.  I’m not sure when this happened, but it did.  And it is something that we need to change.

8. I resolve not to be a short-order cook.  I resolve not to cook more than one thing for dinner.  If you don’t like it, then don’t eat it.

9.  I resolve not to hold my tongue.  t might get me into trouble, but I won’t have the mental anguish that I carry some days.

10. I resolve not to let this year be like last year,  the year before, and the year before that.  We may have had a lot of crappy stuff happen, we may be fighting cancer, but life is what you make it.


Kreativ Blogger Award – Part 2

Here is where I will attempt to fulfill the requirements for receiving this award.  If you’ll remember, the requirements were:
1. You must thank the person who has given you the award.

Thank you again Maxi.  You are such an inspirational blogger – I’m glad that you found me.
2. Copy the logo and place it on your blog.
3. Link the person who has nominated you for the award.

Here is the link to Maxi’s Comments.
4. Name 7 things about yourself that people might find interesting.

Let’s see – I have a teddy bear named Colors that I got from Build-A-Bear not that long ago.  I find it hard to believe that I’m not 18 (or 21) and skinny anymore.  My dog Kirby sleeps in bed with me, under the covers, between my legs.  My mom is one of my best friends.  I am a closet Romance Novel reader – I can read a Romance Novel in 2-3  hours and forget about real life.  I can eat an entire bag of Chips Ahoy Cookies (and it is part of the reason that I’m not skinny – but that part isn’t surprising).  In another life, I’d like to be a chef.  Michael’s favorite song, Stereo Hearts, is stuck in my head.  And so you can understand, here are the lyrics and a link to YouTube.

Stereo Hearts

[Adam Levine:]
My heart’s a stereo
It beats for you, so listen close
Hear my thoughts in every no-o-o-te
Make me your radio
And turn me up when you feel low
This melody was meant for you
Just sing along to my stereo

[Travie McCoy:]
Gym Class Heroes baby!
If I was just another dusty record on the shelf
Would you blow me off and play me like everybody else?
If I asked you to scratch my back, could you manage that?
Like yea fucked up, check it Travie, I can handle that
Furthermore, I apologize for any skipping tracks
It’s just the last girl that played me left a couple cracks
I used to, used to, used to, now I’m over that
‘Cause holding grudges over love is ancient artifacts

If I could only find a note to make you understand
I’d sing it softly in your ear and grab you by the hand
Just keep it stuck inside your head, like your favorite tune
And know my heart’s a stereo that only plays for you

My heart’s a stereo
It beats for you, so listen close
Hear my thoughts in every no-o-o-te
Make me your radio
And turn me up when you feel low
This melody was meant for you
Just sing along to my stereo

Oh oh oh oh, oh oh oh oh to my stereo
Oh oh oh oh so sing along to my stereo

[Travie McCoy:]
Let’s go!
If I was an old-school fifty pound boombox (remember them?)
Would you hold me on your shoulder wherever you walk
Would you turn my volume up in front of the cops (turn it up)
And crank it higher everytime they told you to stop
And all I ask is that you don’t get mad at me
When you have to purchase mad D batteries
Appreciate every mixtape your friends make
You never know we come and go like on the interstate

I think I finally found a note to make you understand
If you can hit it, sing along and take me by the hand
Just keep me stuck inside your head, like your favorite tune
You know my heart’s a stereo that only plays for you

My heart’s a stereo
It beats for you, so listen close
Hear my thoughts in every no-o-o-te
Make me your radio
Turn me up when you feel low
This melody was meant for you
Just sing along to my stereo

Oh oh oh oh, oh oh oh oh to my stereo
Oh oh oh oh so sing along to my stereo

I only pray you’ll never leave me behind (never leave me)
Because good music can be so hard to find (so hard to find)
I take your head and hold it closer to mine
Thought love was dead, but now you’re changing my mind

My heart’s a stereo
It beats for you, so listen close
Hear my thoughts in every no-o-o-te
Make me your radio
Turn me up when you feel low
This melody was meant for you
Just sing along to my stereo

Oh oh oh oh, oh oh oh oh to my stereo
Oh oh oh oh (Gym Class Heroes baby!) so sing along to my stereo


5. Nominate 7 other Kreativ Bloggers.

This is where things become difficult.  I don’t read 7 other blogs.  I read Maxi’s Comments and a blog that is written by childhood friend I reconnected with on Facebook.  It was her blog that inspired me to write my own blog.  It is called, Tidbits from the Queen of Chaos.  I’ve also started reading the blog at Limebird Writers, as Limebirdbeth reads my blog and has been an amazing source of support and assistance.  I regularly check out WordPress for Freshly Pressed blogs, but not much has caught my eye at this point.

Originally, the Norwegian woman who started the award passed the award onto 4 other bloggers.  Even with that requirement, I can’t come up with that many.  So, I’m just going to have to owe 2-5.  I guess it gives me something to work towards.

6. Post links to the 7 blogs you nominate.

See #5.
7. Leave a comment on which of the blogs to let them know they have been nominated.

They should get pingbacks, but I’ll try to remember (as I am scheduling this to post rather than posting it immediately after writing).

Undecorated, Unwrapped Holiday

This is the first year, ever, that I haven’t put up the Christmas tree. There are no decorations to be found in our apartment besides the “Let It Snow” sign that is on our door. There isn’t a snowman or ornament to be found. And Christmas has come and gone.

To be honest, I don’t care about Christmas. I was raised as a cultural Jew. Christmas isn’t my thing. But there weren’t any Hanukkah decorations in our apartment, either. And the menorah stayed packed in the garage.

The boys haven’t believed in Santa since the year Chris was diagnosed.  And they aren’t being raised as Christians.  As for Chris, he never practiced a religion, although his mom and sister are Catholic.

I thought that I would do a little decorating this year. I bought new tree lights, since I think that the old ones were not working. I figured I’d get the Menorah and the tree and the stockings. I thought that I’d put fewer ornaments on the tree, because they are a pain.

Originally, I thought that on the boys’ last day of school we’d go to the garage and get all the stuff. The next day (Friday), I planned on working in my classroom with the boys, having lunch and then going home to decorate.

Except, that Monday night I fell. I think that falling (and the subsequent pain in my foot) put me over the edge I had been hanging on. I just didn’t want to decorate. With my foot, decorating became a chore that was much too hard for me to do. So, I didn’t do it.

We had decided, before my fall, that we were going to have a quiet Christmas and Hanukkah. The boys were getting new linens for their beds. They got new computers in March and that was part of this year’s Christmas presents. And in Feb. or March of this year, we would get them new furniture. The furniture they have is the stuff we got when I Michael was 2. It is primary colors and they have really outgrown it. They got the Star Wars game they wanted when it came out, last week. And really, they didn’t need or want anything.

I did pick up some stocking stuff for the boys and Chris, but it is all little stuff and mostly candy. I did get us all new pajamas, but I actually considered skipping that as well. The boys tend not to sleep in pajamas, so I wasn’t sure that it was worth the money. But since I got such deals at Old Navy (see  post on Old Navy), I figured what the heck.

The stockings, however, were still in the garage. And the couple of things I got the boys, I decided I wasn’t going to wrap. Chris’ presents, the few that I got him,were unwrapped. And I owe him a bottle of wine, which I was going to pick up, but then it snowed. My foot and the snow don’t mix well and walking in the snow causes more pain. So, his wine will have to wait until I can get out safely, or my foot is feeling much better.

I didn’t take the boys to get me a gift. Chris didn’t either. They did get him a little something during one of our trips out, but it wasn’t a big deal.

I did cook a turkey for Christmas Eve. It is an easy thing to prepare in my roaster. We had stuffing with it. And there is a ham for a couple of days after Christmas.

Instead of doing our usual fondue for New Year’s Eve, we had already decided we would do gourmet cheeses and meats and crackers, a veggie tray and a couple other finger food items. We figured that we’d end the night with chocolate fondue.

I’m not sure that I’ve really missed anything by not putting up the decorations. The kids didn’t care. And while Chris noticed, it wasn’t something he was willing to take on.

Christmas was just another day in our house. Nothing special here.  And you know what, I’m ok with that.

A Funny Thing Happened at the Hospital

Sometimes you just have to laugh. Even when you want to cry.

Chris and I went to the University of Colorado Hospital to meet with the Oncologist. We do this every other month (he goes every month, but I only go after scans, which are done every other month). We almost always drive separately since we head in different directions after his appointment.

They have been building a parking garage in the place of a parking lot at the hospital and this has meant that parking has been awful for the last several visits. (more…)

Helping a Family that has Cancer

My recent post, Chris’ Cancer Update and My Bad Mood, earned a comment from my friend, Jessica. She said, “Robin, you have every right to have these feelings… and anyone who has taken the time to read an article on How Can I Help A Friend Who Has Cancer would already have read exactly what you have written.”    Her statement made me curious about what those articles said.  I found articles about How to Help a Friend with Cancer and How to Help a Family when a Child has Cancer but nothing about helping the rest of the family when one member has cancer.  It seems to me that with more available treatments that hold the cancer in check, there will be more families dealing with cancer as a long-term illness.  And they will be dealing with the cancer (continuously) for longer periods of time.

When someone receives a cancer diagnosis, many people offer their help.  We had lots of help when Chris was diagnosed.  And we are very thankful.  We have some friends who we know we can call for anything and they will be there.  We have acquaintances who have given our family so much in the way of help we will never be able to repay their kindness (AG specifically).  There are teachers who have listened to the boys.  There are friends who have listened to me.  There is Chris’ best friend (MH) who is there every day.  But as I reflect on my Bad Mood, I realized that there is much that we would never, ever ask for but could desperately use.  As Chris has been fighting his cancer for 26 months now, there is much that has gone by the wayside.  So here is my attempt at suggestions for how you can help the entire family when one member has cancer. (more…)

Wishing You

Wishing you and your family a very, very Merry Christmas.

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